Doubt

Personally, I find it difficult to say such words. But then again, I have always been awkward in these situations— have always found it difficult to vocalize my emotions. I’m learning, though, that some people find it easy enough to say what’s on their mind and as they claim, what’s in their heart. It is therein that I find it inevitable to question your sincerity in saying them. Yes, such words are heart-warming but they’re nothing if not sincere, if they’re void of meaning, if they’re thrown into the wind like you do confetti. I want to believe in your sweet words, but the sweetness itself raises a red flag. 

A stop sign. 

A question mark. 

Yes, it may be that I am afraid. I won’t deny that. But I believe there’s nothing wrong in that. Everyone gets afraid at some point in their life and there’s nothing wrong with being cautious.. especially given your track record. 

You know all the right things to say… but because of that, I am afraid.

Who doesn’t want to believe? Who doesn’t want to trust? So please give me enough reason to. You told me you don’t want me to bail out on this and I want to believe that’s true.

Because I’m finding that I don’t want to bail out on this… I don’t want to bail out on you.